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nekako je tiho veceras..

so just lie down and say what's on your mind?

vauuuu

NIŠTA

uh kako me nervira taj odgovor!!! vauuuu

you're pretty when you're faithfull.. vauu

dosao sam znatizeljno blizu kraja, dolje.. ponad moje nistavne jame..
porazen, prepustio sam se i prisao blize.. mogao bih pronaci utjehu ovdje.. mogao bih pronaci mir unutar te praznine.. kako jadno.. ali ona me doziva..
i u mojem najcrnijem trenutku, fetalnom i placnom.. mjesec mi je povjerio tajnu.. moj povjerenik.. ''ma koliko sam potpun i sjajan, ova svjetlost nije moja.. tisuce svjetlosti se reflektiraju preko mene.. sam izvor je sjajan i beskrajan.. izvor ozivljava beznadne.. bez njega mi smo bezivotni sateliti koji bezciljno lutaju''
i sada sam shvatio bez i jedne sumnje da ne zelim biti dolje ublazavati svoj narcizam.. moram razapeti ego prije nego sto je prekasno.. molim se da me svjetlost podigne prije nego isceznem..
pa zato razapni ego prije nego je prekasno.. ostavi iza sebe ovo mjesto koje je tako negativno, slijepo i cinicno.. i tada ces shvatiti da smo svi mi jedan um. um koji je sposoban izvrsiti sve sto si uvjeri i predoci..
samo dopusti svjetlosti da te dotakne i napuni rijecima.. pusti rijeci neka prodju kroz tebe.. neka izvuku van nasu nadu i razum..

ti si tako nemoguca.. vrisak i plakanje hladi moju dusu.. ne zelim cuti od tebe kako si ostavljenja svaki put kad si se probudila i plakala.. to nije laz, ucinila si to sama sebi.. ne izgledaj sada iznenadjeno, morala si to znati cijelo vrijeme..
nista nije lako, nista nije tesko kada izgubis svoj um.. s tobom je sve nepostojano.. ne pricaj mi o svojim brigama jer ja sam bolestan, ostavljam te na slijepo.. sada je doslo vrijeme napustanja ove ljubavi koja te isusila.. nema potrebe za raspravom oko toga jer znas da za to razloga nema..
nikada ti nisam rekao da ce ova ljubav trajati zauvijek.. ne mozes me imati za zauvijek, shvati to vec jednom..
dok budes citala ovo pismo bebo ja cu vec biti daleko.. daleko od tebe..

ja bih na koncert... zasto je bas danas.. vauuu

Hey...oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me
As her body once did
All five horizons
Revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn
Ooh, and all I taught her was, everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all, that she wore
And now my bitter hands
Chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
Oh, the pictures have
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by
Some kids at play
I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin
Round my head
I'm spinning
Oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away...
And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad
Turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see
All that I am
All I'll be...
Yeah
Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine

Ima jedna pjesma... Zemlja se okrenula da nas približi, okrenula je i sebe i nas... dok nas nije spojila u ovom snu. :P vauuu

a jebote covjek pocne malo srati po tudjem blogu i on odmah stavi novi zapis.. nije to u redu, a bas sam vidio iskru u njezinim ocima.. kako da joj sada prodam kartu za moj bus.. :( vauuu

a jebote.. jeste za nista danas!!!
vauuu

sjedimo u pijesku vremena.. pogledi nam lutaju, rijetko se srecu.. ponekad, u biti cijelo vrijeme osjecam kako odlazis od mene.. da, bas poput pijeska one nocikoji je curio kroz moje prste.. sto sam ga jace zelio zadrzati to ga je sve manje ostajalo.. ne zelim da od tebe ostane samo par zrnaca pijeska na mojim dlanovima.. pokraj tebe se osjecam tako izgubljenim.. a opet, bez tebe doslovno ludim.. ne zelim te izgubiti.. ne zelim te zaboraviti.. ali, neznam koji je drugi nacin da svoj um, svoj razum zadrzim.. poslije nase svake svadje osjecam se kao da su mi sve kosti polomljene.. u samoci, u tisini ostajem gledati kako polako zacjeljuju i onda te opet zovem.. opet se osjecam slomljeno.. vauuuu

jos jedan od onih dana u nizu.. vauuu

Well, I've been down so Goddamn long
That it looks like up to me
Well, I've been down so very damn long
That it looks like up to me
Yeah, why don't one you people
Come on and set me free
I said, warden, warden, warden
Won't you break your lock and key
I said, warden, warden, warden
Won't you break your lock and key
Yeah, come along here, mister
Come on and let the poor boy be
Baby, baby, baby,
Won't you get down on your knees
Baby, baby, baby,
Won't you get down on your knees
Come on little darling,
Come on and give your love to me, oh yeah
Well, I've been down so Goddamn long
That it looks like up to me
Well, I've been down so very damn long
That it looks like up to me
Yeah, why don't one you people
Come on, oh come on, come on and set me free

Once i had a little game
I liked to crawl back in my brain
I think you know the game i mean
I mean the game called 'go insane'
Now you should try this little game
Just close your eyes forget your name
Forget the world, forget the people
And we'll erect a different steeple.

This little game is fun to do.
Just close your eyes, no way to lose.
And i'm right here, i'm going too.
Release control, we're breaking through.

uspia sam se napokon probuditi.. kroz stan mi je proslo vec troje ljudi u nadi da ce me izvuci iz kreveta.. nisam ih dozivljavao.. moram poceti kljucati vrata.. a sada me vec ceka odluka dana: obuci se ili ne? mislim da cu ipak prvo popiti kavicu..  vauuu

Don't even think about reachin' me
I won't be home
Don't even think about stoppin' by
Don't think of me at all
I did, what I had to do
If there was a reason, it was you...

Don't even think about gettin' inside
Voices in my head, voices
I got scratches, all over my arms
One for each day, since I fell apart
I did, what I had to do
If there was a reason, it was you...

Footsteps in the hall, it was you, you
Pictures on my chest, it was you
It was you...

I did, what I had to do
And if there was a reason
Oh, there wasn't no reason, no
And if, there's something you'd like to do
Just let me continue, to blame you

Footsteps in the hall, it was you, you
Pictures on my chest, it was you, you

angels on the sideline
puzzled and amused
why did Father give these humans free will?
now they're all confused

don't these talking monkeys know that Eden has enough to go around?
playing in this holy garden, silly old monkeys
well there's one who's bound to divide it
right in two

angels on the sideline
baffled and confused
father blessed them all with reason
and this is what they choose
monkey killing monkey killing monkey
over pieces of the ground

silly monkeys given thumbs
they forge a blade
and then theres one bound to divide it
right in two
right in two

monkey killing monkey killing monkey
over pieces of the ground
silly monkeys give them thumbs
they make a club
and beat their brother down
how they survive so misguided is a mystery
repugnant, dismal creature who would squander
the ability to live, to die, and have a conscience

brothers sleep inside here

cut it all right in two
cut it all right in two
cut it all right in two
cut it all right in two

fight over the clouds, over wind, over sky
fight over life, over blood, over air
fight over love, over sun, over another
fight each other, over

angels on the sideline again
been so long with patience and reason
angels on the sideline again
wondering when this tug of war will end

cut it all right in two
cut it all right in two
cut it all right in two
right in two
right in two