simon

a runner. i'll run from you until you give up the chase.
then i'll hug my knees and cry.
 

you cannot see my eyes, ever.
they tell the truth. the truth i don't want you to know.

Vatreni tornado je spalio vatrogasce
Ništa nije upućivalo na tragediju, sve dok vatra koja je gutala nisko kornatsko raslinje nije stigla do ulaza u kanjon u kojem su se zatekli vatrogasci. I tu počinje pakao.
Strašni vatreni tornado, potpomognut efektom kanjona (ili poludimnjaka) i efektom eruptivnog požara, usmrtio je i teško ozlijedio u samo nekoliko sekunda vatrogasce na Kornatima, piše Slobodna Dalmacija. Do tog je zaključka, na temelju osobnog poznavanja terena i višednevnog proučavanja i testiranja svih javno dostupnih podataka, došao ekspertni tim predvođen prof. dr. Darkom Stipaničevim s Fakulteta elektrotehnike, strojarstva i brodogradnje u Splitu. Nesretni gasitelji nisu imali gotovo nikakve šanse da se neozlijeđeni izvuku iz vatrene stihije jer su se tog kobnog četvrtka na Kornatima poklopile doista sve nesretne okolnosti koje su izazvale neviđenu katastrofu.
A ništa nije upućivalo na tragediju, sve dok vatra koja je gutala nisko kornatsko raslinje nije stigla do ulaza u kanjon u kojem su se zatekli vatrogasci. I tu počinje pakao. Naime, vatra je na ulazu u kanjon dohvatila visoku travu (do 60 centimetara), suhu kao barut i punu aromatskog bilja koja ima tri do četiri puta veću toplinsku moć od običnog raslinja. Nošen jakim jugom od četiri bofora, plamen se trenutačno razbuktao, pretvorio u nezaustavljivu elementarnu silu s vatrenim jezicima visokim više metara. Uz to, ističu splitski stručnjaci, naglo izgaranje izazvalo je pad tlaka iznad opožarenog područja, što je temeljna pretpostavka za formiranje najsmrtonosnijeg neprijatelja svih gasitelja na svijetu. U dnu kornatskog kanjona, samo 350 metara od vatrogasaca, izrastao je vatreni tornado.
Istodobno, stvarala se još jedna elementarna sila – efekt eruptivnog požara – na koju nitko živ ne može utjecati. Naime, ono što je na otvorenom prostoru nemoguće, u zatvorenom kanjonu (ili poludimnjaku) se dogodilo – brzina vatrenog vrtloga se povećava i do stotinu puta. U tom su trenutku šanse nesretnika postale ravne nuli jer je tornado potpomognut munjevitim širenjem vatre, gonjene jakim vjetrom – pretpostavlja se – u 15 sekunda prevalio put do potpuno zatečenih ljudi. Do njih je najprije stigao toplinski val (ili – kako se to stručno kaže – "vrući produkti izgaranja"), zapravo toplina od nekoliko stotina Celzijevih stupnjeva. Pod utjecajem strahovite temperature enormno je porastao tlak u kanistrima s benzinom iz kojih su se proširile i zapalile i benzinske pare. Potom pristiže i podivljali vatreni tornado koji usisava benzinske pare, te se odbija od litica i u zraku, točno iznad vatrogasaca, razvija se u svoj svojoj ubitačnoj snazi. Vatrogasci su se našli doslovno u središtu zemaljskog pakla. Spasa nije bilo, niti ga je moglo biti. Na dnu kanjona, na sprženoj zemlji ostali su sprženi ljudi, piše Slobodna Dalmacija. Net.hr 07.09.2007.

da ne gledam televiziju, tek sam sad odgledala http://dnevnik.hr/naslovnica/vijesti/hrvatska/20070906_24923_69241.php
bez rijeci sam :(

Do you know what it feels like loving someone who's in a rush to throw you away? Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
If birds flying south is a sign of changes, at least you can predict this every year. Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly ...
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me, look in your eyes to see something about me. I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

when they wanna know what i "like in a guy", what knocks off my knickerboxers..
jeeez, that's easy, really.. i either "feel you", or i don't. 'sides that, just don't be shorter than me, don't be stupid, and don't be boring.

a month ago, i finally lost battle with my gray hairs. there began to be so many, that exterminating/extracting/expunging them ceased being an option.
beginning to get used to my hair highlighted with grays, rather than goldens.. fuck, am i becoming a normal, patient, accepting person?!

kad sam sinoc izisla iz ureda? 22:15
preksinoc? 00:30
prekpreksinoc? 23:30
 

those (wo)men who cannot stand to be on their own. they will go thru hell and high side with "significant others" (who give them naught but hell) all just not to be ALONE.
you are never truly alone, as you have yourself. and you are never truly TOGETHER with anyone other than you. fine, let people into your life, let them add to it, color it, become a part of it.. but don't ever let them BECOME your life.

NEMO ME IMPUNE LACESSIT
 

OK, Have a great day.  I am trying to think of what I may say or do to make your day better. Think of yourself as a tiger prowling around and looking at stupid assed gazelles. Or think that they are all naked and vulnerable and dim witted, which they may be.  Or think that you are YZ, you kick ass, get out of my fucking way you stupid assed male good old boy system mother fuckers.. You take care of you. 

cared to hear comments to authentic thoughts and viewpoints.
does anyone think anyone, anywhere, would change their mind just cuz someone, somewhere, thinks different?
have your own thoughts. and relay them unrelated to anyone else's.

just like cats, find their pleasure in their own inner lives, doing their own lil thing.. whether catching mice, prancing around, lazyin' in the sun, cats and women take pleasure in themselves, irregardless of what anyone else might think.
should they find someone who shares their view of how great and fun they are, so much the better. if not, they don't do it for noone but themselves anyway.

men and dogs HAVE to be big!
if not tall, then nicely built or built up.
if neither tall nor built impressively, then big in the knickerboxers.
cuz if they have NOTHIN, nothin at all worth mentionin, they turn into sour nasty lil things, spittin kickin and screamin.. the only way to make a mark in the world.

least my hapiness, contentment and motivation is not entirely dependent on someone other than me...
come think of it, most my friends are like that. just fine whatever happens. or not.