Pjesma

Love, Once It Was
 
 
It wasn't enough just to love you, was it?
And it wasn't enough that you had my heart lit?
You wanted more, more than I have offered,
More than I ever could, and for that I suffered.
I asked, that fatal night, what is that you wanted,
And in silence you sat while I fleetingly wondered.
You left me out there sitting in cold, dark night,
While you glided out my life, a star once so bright.
I tried to tell you not to burn me, not like that,
But you walked away, like we've never met.
One word would suffice, be it yes or no
Instead you left, and my spirits sank low.
Why you did it, know I still not,
But it hurt me deeply, and it hurt a lot.
I would have given you, if I could all,
My heart, my soul, my love, my role.
I did give it all, but you wanted more.
In you I sought warmth, but found cold at core.
Did I ask too much, more than a lot?
Well you gave me nothing, now it's all I've got...
Deny it do not. Far too close were we,
your avoidance and deception not to see.
It could have been so easy, if you were honest,
We would remain friends, it would be for best.
But it didn't really end that way, right?
Would it've been too easy, too light?
One thing, just one thing, I cannot see.
Why you teased, why just didn't let it be?
If you told me, even only once, to forget it all,
I would remain on the other side of wall.
On we go, to forget it all would be best,
So let's separate and give each other eternal rest

nije lako razabrati svoje osjećaje. nije jednostavno biti siguran u sebe. al kad to postigneš s nekim, kad se postigne takva čista iskrenost, nema mjesta za zablude, neporazume, prevare i slična sranja. i tad znaš da voliš tu osobu, odnosno da se volite (i tad se to smije reći). ja sam to doživjela samo jednom...ja mislim. u svojoj prvoj vezi (4 god. trajanja). možda baš zato što je bila prva, čista, nevina (prvu godinu dana - i doslovno nevina). PITAM SE KAKO SAD OPET DOĆI U TO STANJE, kad ne znaš kome vjerovati, kad sam i sama toliko nepredvidljiva da ne znam ni sama šta točno osjećam. ne želim strateške veze, ali pokušala sam slijediti instinkt u ljubavi, i završavalo je...svakako. ustvari sam samo potisnula um. a srce...je usamljeno.
nemoj sve ovo shvatit osobno. eto, tvoja pjesma me valjda potaknula na ovo. mislim, volim se pismeno izrazit, jer tako sama sebe bolje shvaćam. u biti imam dečka i razmišljam o ljubavi, preispitujem si osjećaje.

These two poems..... are they yours.... just had to write down somethin.... and emotions are so confused at the moment....
sorry for interruption...

"Why you teased, why just didn't let it be?" =>u prirodi nam je. ali, nekad se preracunamo pa vi pobijedite...znam
jedan takav primjer:)