simon

all that happened, i still fuckin' adore you.
i've given up all pretense at protecting the ego, i put your sweet smiling face on my desktop and i smile watching your face,  heavy lids, arms, hands, waist... like i don't see it all in detail in my mind's eye..
i smile at you like you haven't torn me to pieces at all.. i don't want to think of the good things cuz they hurt too much, and don't want to think of the bad things cuz i've erased most of them so they wouldn't hurt.. i just am, i guess..
tears blur my sight as i write this, but i don't feel resentment, i don't feel rage, i don't feel much, really.. i adore you and i'm just a little sad.. hell, sadness is my basic emotion.. so no harm done, i guess..
does that make me weird? stupid? pathetic? sweet? half dead? inhuman? half-human? or just in denial..
who the fuck am i??

really funny.. jednako smo dugo na iskri, a tebe, cini se, svi znaju..
mene su samo zagooglali :p
govori li to sto o meni? :(

neck and tiny fair hair in the backlight..
can't get it out of my head :(
truth be told, i don't want to.
 

red griffin - control freak, trknuta. veselo se smije, pise kao da ce se koknut za 3 minute. premalo se trosi. sjebana.
 
lukrezio - patnja je izvor kreativnosti. drag momak, poseban na vise nacina. ima lijepe plave oke. sjeban.
 
minotaur - pametan, trknut. nije znao gdje je granica, popravlja se. sjeban. nemam pojma kakve oke ima.
 
big beauty - neko vijeme provela na ignore listi. urnebesno smijesni komentari s cesnjakom. sjebana.
 
pike TS - pametan momak, hoce se javit na mob i kad je covjek u qcu. ne ulazim u njegove emocije (i.e. sjeban)
 
painless - moj omiljeni blogger. and more. zastrasujuce inteligentan, nacitan i pismen. sjeban.
 
mica ko mica - egotripasica online, vjerojatno nista slicno tome offline. u poplavi kretena, mica je zapravo frajerica. sjebana.
 
mach 3 turbo - najseksi glas iskrice. sjeban. inace ok.
 
bejbi3 - ako nije bila sjebana do sad, iskrica ce je dotuci. preporucam micanje zbog pretanke kože.
 
previse zensko - moja omiljena bloggerica. rekla bih da nije sjebana. uopce. voli csi.
 
vasp - used to be moj omiljeni blogger. sjeban.
 
kymani - vjerojatno najbolji momak na iskrici. sto znaci da bas i nema srece. radi super pisanice. sjeban.
 
ans - najcool persona na iskri. ili tako djeluje. boli je klit. mislim da nije sjebana.
 

are my motivation.
have been for the last 2.5 years.
 

was happy today..drivin slowly down the old roads thru gorski kotar with my bebe, windows open in cool 27deg C, listenin to morcheeba, and just BEING. present. alive. and loving it.
hold on to the feeling.. and do it again next wknd.

a fucking controversy wherever the fuck i go. damn annoying and extremely tiring..

.

isuse (aaaaa!!!) boze, kako mi nedostajes!!
everyone,everything else is just bandaid.

walk away,he said, walk away..
or you'll get messed up.
how do you do it? walk away from such extatic fit?

i walked away.
and i'm all messed up anyway.

so i drive my car like i've got a death wish.
i don't. i just don't feel alive any more, cept when i stare death in the eye.

and i'm only happy snuggled with my little love.
cept he's all grown now and don' wanna snuggle no more.

i'm empty.
i'm the emptiest person i know.

I'm gonna find my baby
Before that sun goes down..

se ne skupim na hrpu ..
 
skupit cu se na hrpu.
 
prestani razmisljati.
usuti.
sjeti se sto je bitno.
 
 
 

the FUCK is wrong with me?!
Y do i let them get 2 me?
Y do i get every damn thing get to me..
;(

kad me pogleda tip moje visine..

run on for a long time..

sam, iza ponoci, na mracnoj cesti negdje kaj mislim da spada u zagorje, u komunikator upisala prve dvije recenice necega sto ce mozda biti knjiga.