izmedju tijela i sna, ova je ordinacija.

opet, bitne su nijanse, al ovo je uhhhm jako jako... /:/
 
The Narcissistic-Perfectionist Type
        Lacking aggressive qualities, he is defenseless against aggressive types.  He does not "play the game", does not split his personality to a subdued state, and cannot be induced into an aggressive-vindictive rage.  He is usually not sexually aggressive in a predatory manner.  Since his love relations cannot be based on a dominant-submissive relationship, he loves on the basis of his narcissistic and perfectionist qualities.  In particular, he loves because he should love, and he is tender because he should be tender.  In fact, he will do anything that a devoted mate should do, simply because his inner nature tells him, "I deserve it to myself and to everyone that I should do everything perfectly."
          He has a strong sense of duty:  dutifulness to his family, to his friends, to his country, perhaps to his god, and to himself.  In his duty to himself he must accomplish what he must, and this may sometimes be one detailed task after another.  Thus, he may develop a "workaholic" quality to his life, always seemingly busy and always late.  He may be a contemplative procrastinator.  He is, therefore, punctilious but not necessarily punctual.
          He is almost universally liked, or regarded to be a quiet person who is benignly tolerated. In American parlance, he is often a "nice guy" or a "fine gal".  He may be somewhat prudish or even pious.  He seems to be rather aloof, ignoring others in a benign way as he quietly goes about his business of pursuits for his own self-satisfaction.  However, he is easily approachable and almost always tries to be helpful.  He may present himself as a straightforward, uncomplicated person, even a "Simple Simon", but this is misleading and it is only on closer examination that we see the stringent demands that he places on himself.
         His natural facial expression is a poker-face or dead-pan look of perfectionist restraint.  As he plays his game of cards, he holds them close to his chest, and he does not particularly wish to discuss how his game is proceeding.  In fact, he secretly has everything invested in the finality of success and in the recognition of his success by others.  Thus, if recognition does come in any shape or form, whether it is a colleague to bring him good cheer, or actual recognition for something well done in an actual limelight, then he will smile.  And his gingival smile, whenever it breaks out through his poker-faced visage, is a sight to behold!  It is a warm, radiant, captivating smile, a kind of sheepish smile, appearing suddenly like the sun breaking through the clouds, or of a Cheshire cat suddenly appearing in the mist.  It is often so breathtakingly, sincerely radiant that one is led to believe that this smile by itself is enough to give the human race its redeeming social value.  And it does not take much insight to realize that this smile is the smile of narcissism bursting forth through the clouds of perfectionism. 
          This usually quiet, unaggressive individual easily bends to the will of others, right?  Wrong!!  He is persistent.  He is obstinate.  He is recalcitrant.  He is downright stubborn.  He has a will all of his own, and if he wants to do something in his own orderly way, then wild horses will not be able to budge him from his position.
          Finally, in his deal with life, "I will be perfect, so life will be perfect to me", he is especially vulnerable to any failure intruding into his existence, whether it be a flat tire on his automobile, a natural disaster or the loss of a loved one.  Such failures may register not only as deep disappointments, but as hopeless reversals in what he perceives should be a natural order in life.
          In the context of mating, the NP type is not aggressive and usually not predatory, although he will certainly acknowledge that he is a sexual being. He tends not to "fall in love" easily because the decision to devote himself to a mate must be a perfect decision, and such a perfect decision, like all of his decisions, is not easily made on the spur of the moment.  If he enters into a long-term relationship with an aggressive-vindictive personage, for example with an NA type, he may suffer in silence like the "brave wife" or the "henpecked husband", all the while berating himself for not being perfect enough to make the relationship an ideal one.
          In the final analysis, his lack of free will has a poignant quality.  He may at heart be so innately sympathetic, so intrinsically devoid of evil... so "good", that it is almost pathetic to see him go through life, whatever his real accomplishments, a prisoner of his own demands on himself.
 

khm pa ne.. kriza onog kak se ponasam. vazno mislim je imat na umu da moj karakter nisam ja, jer sam i racio koji omogucuje da ga oblikujem i prema izboru, hm?

ma da kuzim ja tebe, al vidish neznam nekako me valda ispunjava... i kojesta vidim sto nisam vidio, jasnije nego prije...ma i razmisljam zapravo kaj me to sve drzi (osim kaj mi je ona neizostavno u koshtanoj srzhi ;)