Life and everything...

I ulazim tako u pekaru... gladan... cijeli dan ništa konkretno pojeo... sad ću lijepo jednu pizzu smazati i bit će mi bolje...
"Večer, jednu pizzu molim. I ako možete podgrijati molim vas."
"Da, svakako"
Stavlja pizzu u pećnicu... tapkam nogom po podu... ogledavam se po pekari dok čekam da se zgrije...
Ubrzo ju vadi. Ja sav sretan i impresioniran čudima moderne tehnike koja nam omogućavaju tako brzo zagrijavanje, zahvaljujem i izlazim van...
Sjeo u auto i da ću početi jesti... a pizza mrtva hladna... mislim da nije ni upalila tu pećnicu... ili ju je moje razgledavanje pekare učinilo toliko nervoznom da ju je prebrzo izvadila...
Budući da sam bio parkiran točno ispred pekare, vadim upaljač i počinjem grijati pizzu... polako, da budem siguran da vidi...
Normalno da nema nekog učinka, jer je pizza toliko hladna da ne bi ni 10 upaljača pomoglo... Nakon što sam se istom ugodno rashladio, još uvijek osjećam glad...
Ulazim opet u istu pekaru... Sva se sledila kad me vidila (neka ju, sad vidi kako je pizzi bilo)
Pita, (uz slabašan, isforsirani smiješak):
"Šta ćeš još jednu?"
"Ne, perec" (odgovaram hladno skoro k'o pizza)
Razmišljam da li da joj predložim da promjeni djelatnost u "ledara", ali odustajem od dobronamjernog savjeta i izlazim van...
 

Some say the end is near...
Some say we'll see armaggedon soon...
Baš sam maloprije, dok sam sjedio u udobnoj toplini svog doma mislio napisati neki blog o tome kako je vrijeme vani sivo, ali djeluje ugodno...
Izađem van...
A kad tamo...
Cijela Rijeka je u totalno apokaliptičnom stanju, kakvo još nisam doživio i tjera me da se zamislim nad gore navedenim stihovima...

Pitam se da li bi hrvatska sapunica imala bolju gledanost kad bi imala titl na španjolskom?

Situacija se razvija više nego dobro. Promatrani se ponašaju kao što je i očekivano i sve ide po planu. Napokon smo se svi uspjeli dogovoriti oko gradnje, te napredujemo zavidnom brzinom, a zidovi su sve deblji i kvalitetniji. Još se samo oko ulaza nismo složili. Nas nekolicina je sigurna da je ulaz suvišan, te da treba pustiti samo zidove, debele, visoke zidove isprepletene mislima i emocijama, dok smo mi ostali još uvijek neodlučni. Ali svi skupa se sve bolje slažemo, a to je ono najbitnije, te je pomisao ujedinjenja bliža no ikad...

Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening,terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going inthis ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, thereligious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us bygiving us order, rules, regulations, informing, forming in our minds theirview of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority andlearn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindedness;chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself.Think for yourself. Question authority.
               -Timothy Leary (Third eye intro)

i tako ja u gradu, na kontu, cekam frenda... Opet... Trebao je biti ovdje pred pola sata, ali tek se sad probudio... Opet... :) lijepo je kad dobro poznajes ljude, pa te neke stvari ne diraju jer si vec navikao... :)

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN OF THE CLASS OF '97:
IF I COULD OFFER YOU ONLY ONE TIP FOR THE FUTURE, SUNSCREEN WOULD BE IT. THE LONG-TERM BENEFITS OF SUNSCREEN HAVE BEEN PROVED BY SCIENTISTS, WHEREAS THE REST OF MY ADVICE HAS NO BASIS MORE RELIABLE THAN MY OWN MEANDERING EXPERIENCE...I WILL DISPENSE THIS ADVICE NOW.
ENJOY THE POWER AND BEAUTY OF YOUR YOUTH--OH, NEVER MIND, YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND THE POWER AND BEAUTY OF YOUR YOUTH UNTIL THEY HAVE FADED. BUT TRUST ME, IN 20 YEARS YOU'LL LOOK BACK AT PHOTOS OF YOURSELF AND RECALL IN A WAY YOU CAN'T GRASP NOW HOW MUCH POSSIBILITY LAY BEFORE YOU AND HOW FABULOUS YOU REALLY LOOKED. YOU ARE NOT AS FAT AS YOU IMAGINE. DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE FUTURE; OR, WORRY. BUT KNOW THAT WORRYING IS AS EFFECTIVE AS TRYING TO SOLVE AN ALGEBRA EQUATION BY CHEWING BUBBLEGUM. THE REAL TROUBLES IN YOU LIFE ARE APT TO BE THINGS THAT NEVER CROSSED YOUR WORRIED MIND; THE KIND THAT BLINDSIDE YOU AT 4PM ON SOME IDLE TUESDAY. DO ONE THING EVERY DAY THAT SCARES YOU. SING. DON'T BE RECKLESS WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S HEARTS. DON'T PUT UP WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE RECKLESS WITH YOURS. FLOSS. DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME ON JEALOUSY. SOMETIMES YOU'RE AHEAD, SOMETIMES YOU'RE BEHIND...THE RACE IS LONG, AND IN THE END, IT'S ONLY WITH YOURSELF. REMEMBER THE COMPLIMENTS YOU RECEIVE, AND FORGET THE INSULTS. IF YOU SUCCEED IN DOING THIS, TELL ME HOW. KEEP YOUR OLD LOVE LETTERS. THROW AWAY YOUR OLD BANK STATEMENTS. STRETCH. DON'T FEEL GUILTY IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE...THE MOST INTERESTING PEOPLE I KNOW DIDN'T KNOW AT 22 WHAT THEY WANTED TO DO WITH THEIR LIVES. SOME OF THE MOST INTERESTING 40 YEAR OLDS I KNOW STILL DON'T. GET PLENTY OF CALCIUM. BE KIND TO YOUR KNEES. YOU'LL MISS THEM WHEN THEY'RE GONE. MAYBE YOU'LL MARRY, MAYBE YOU WON'T. MAYBE YOU'LL HAVE CHILDREN, MAYBE YOU WON'T. MAYBE YOU'LL DIVORCE AT 40. MAYBE YOU'LL DANCE THE FUNKY CHICKEN ON YOUR 75TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T CONGRATULATE YOURSELF TOO MUCH OR BERATE YOURSELF EITHER. YOUR CHOICES ARE HALF CHANCE. SO ARE EVERYBODY ELSE'S. ENJOY YOUR BODY. USE IT EVERY WAY YOU CAN. DON'T BE AFRAID OF IT, OR WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF IT. IT'S THE GREATEST INSTRUMENT YOU'LL EVER OWN. DANCE. EVEN IF YOU HAVE NOWHERE TO DO IT BUT IN YOU OWN LIVING ROOM. READ THE DIRECTIONS, EVEN IF YOU DON'T FOLLOW THEM. DO NOT READ BEAUTY MAGAZINES. THEY WILL ONLY MAKE YOU FEEL UGLY. GET TO KNOW YOUR PARENTS. YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN THEY'LL BE GONE FOR GOOD. BE NICE TO YOUR SIBLINGS. THEY ARE THE BEST LINK TO YOUR PAST AND THE PEOPLE MOST LIKELY TO STICK WITH YOU IN THE FUTURE. UNDERSTAND THAT FRIENDS COME AND GO, BUT FOR THE PRECIOUS FEW YOU SHOULD HOLD ON. WORK HARD TO BRIDGE THE GAPS IN GEOGRAPHY AND LIFESTYLE--BECAUSE THE OLDER YOU GET, THE MORE YOU NEED THE PEOPLE YOU KNEW WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG. LIVE IN NEW YORK CITY ONCE, BUT LEAVE BEFORE IT MAKES YOU HARD. LIVE IN NORTHERN CALIFORNIA ONCE, BUT LEAVE, BEFORE IT MAKES YOU SOFT. TRAVEL. ACCEPT CERTAIN INALIENABLE TRUTHS: PRICES WILL RISE, POLITICIANS WILL PHILANDER, AND YOU TOO WILL GET OLD. AND WHEN YOU DO, YOU'LL FANTASIZE THAT WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG, PRICES WERE REASONABLE, POLITICIANS WERE NOBLE, AND CHILDREN RESPECTED THEIR ELDERS. RESPECT YOU ELDERS. DON'T EXPECT ANYONE ELSE TO SUPPORT YOU. MAYBE YOU HAVE A TRUST FUND, MAYBE YOU HAVE A WEALTHY SPOUSE; BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN EITHER ONE MIGHT RUN OUT. DON'T MESS TOO MUCH WITH YOUR HAIR; OR BY THE TIME YOU'RE 40, IT WILL LOOK 85. BE CAREFUL WHOSE ADVICE YOU BUY, BUT BE PATIENT WITH THOSE WHO SUPPLY IT. ADVICE IS A FORM OF NOSTALGIA. DISPENSING IT IS A WAY OF FISHING THE PAST FROM THE DISPOSAL, WIPING IT OFF, PAINTING OVER THE UGLY PARTS, AND RECYCLING IT FOR MORE THAN IT'S WORTH. BUT TRUST ME ON THE SUNSCREEN.
Baz Luhrman

U zadnje vrijeme za sve više i više mjesta čujem da se "tamo skupljaju homoseksualci"...
Zadnje za koje sam čuo jest famozni Tranzistor i to dok sam bio tamo.
I tako stojim ja do frenda (u Tranzistoru) i vodimo mi neku pijanu raspravu jedno dobrih pola sata i osvrnem se... pogledam... vidim, izbacivač me gleda uz podrugljivi osmijeh... osvrnem se još malo, pogledam još malo i vidim još par tipova sa značajnim pogledima... i onda mi sine:"pa da, ja vodim normalan razgovor sa frendom, a ne nabacujem se nekoj curi sa glupim šprehama, dakle ja sam homoseksualac"...
Šta stvarno smisao svakog izlaska mora biti uvaljivanje nekoj curi?
I samo da se odbranim od standardnih reakcija: Ne, nemam ništa protiv homoseksualnosti i čisto me zaboli da li će netko za mene misliti da jesam ili nisam homosklon (ok, osim možda ako se radi o nekoj curi do koje mi je stalo :) )...

Sail away David Graya nova je pjesma na mojoj playlisti, hvala osobi koja mi ju je otkrila...

I eto, nas dvanaest se opet skupilo samo kako bi svatko otišao na svoju stranu i obavio taj zadatak. Nije ni bitno, ništa nije bitno ako dovoljno dugo razmišljaš o tom nečem. Zašto? blah, kao da ja znam... možda je i bolje, a možda i nije... Drito iz mozga? Ne, ne možeš misli pisati drito iz mozga, jer bez obzira koliko brzo pisao/tipkao, misli uvijek idu brže...
Ali možeš zadržati misao...
Teoretski da, ali u stvari ne možeš, jer ti dok zadržavaš tu jednu misao u glavi, druge i dalje trče i prolaze, i nakon što istipkaš tu jednu, preskočio si (umetni veliki broj ovdje) drugih i kad pišeš slijedeću nema baš nekog prevelikog smisla niti povezanosti s prošlom. Druga stvar je ako odabireš slijedeću misao i stavljaš ju na prvu da bi imala smisla, ali onda to nije pisanje drito iz glave, nego fejkanje kao što je i ovdje slučaj...
Spontanost? Ne znam..

I bio sam vani... i padala je na mene... po meni... svuda po meni... i dirala me kako samo ona zna... i smijala se sa mnom... i pratila me u stopu... i padala na mene... po meni... svuda po meni...
I sad sam opet unutra... a ona pada na nekog drugog... po nekim drugim ljudima... po svima...

Blah,
vani pada kiša... ja sam unutra i po meni ne pada... sad ću izaći van i onda će padati po meni... bit ću malo mokar ali osim toga ništa se neće promijeniti ni kiši ni meni... Ali ja ću znati da ona pada na mene... :)

Opijanje je jedan od najboljih načina za trošenje novca, jer ga trošiš direktno na sebe, tj. vlastiti užitak. Jer na kraju krajeva svi mi radimo kako bi mogli uživati. Zato ću kupiti komad odjeće koji mi se sviđa kako bih uživao noseći ga. Zato želim dobar auto da mi bude gušt dok ga vozim. Zato hoću stan u kojem ću se dobro osjećati... A opijanje je kratkoročno ulaganje kojim odmah pretvaraš novac u užitak. Jer dobro ti je dok piješ, zar ne? :)
Otprilike ovim riječima sam jučer morao nagovarati frenda nakon što su ga nakon 4.-5. cuge počele prati moralne dileme... :)

And oh! the pleasure of it, feeling this possibility liberated and forgiven, the pleasure of bearing down on this human herd and seeing it break before him...
                              Clive Barker - Cabal

Otkrio sam novu tehniku paljenja upaljača koji odbija poslušnost (znate one sitne stvari: stavi na minimum, pa opet digni do maksimuma, stisni full jako kremen, itd...), a to je prebacivanje u drugu ruku...
Dakle, probavao sam s desnom i nikako nije htio, ali nakon što sam promijenio ruku i probao s lijevom, uspio iz prve!!! :) Već dva puta za redom, dakle definitivno pali... :)